Sometimes the bubble view of the world comes crashing down on you leaving you gasping and confused. I wanna hide away from the reality. The reality of the fact that the goal is too is and the way we are confronting the problem is too flimsy. I want to hide away from the fact that I am a failure - if in nothing else - in people. I wanna hide away from the fact that I have been unsuccessful in getting my acts straight and walking full pace on my road to salvation.
And yet again, my road has so much of charm, it has so much of peace, it is so refreshing, it is a goal so worthy of pursuing, that even in my darkest day I seek the refuge of work to keep my failure as a person away from my existence. This road is not a road to glory for me. It is the road which will keep me away from frustration and helplessness. With no muscle power and very little intellect, I have nothing to prove to the world and the world has nothing to listen from me. I am a helpless parasite struggling to be true to the consciousness inside which time and again pokes my innermost to rebel against the norms of the day.
I seek you - my cause - as a refuse against everything. I seek you as a refuge against failure and success. I seek you as a refuge from the consequences of all the things I did - not so well. You are my only hope - my only chance. You are my only road to salvation!