Happy New Year Rajat! I told myself.. A moment later - New year? What's that? I know we are going to change the last two digits of the date after a long time. But what more? 2010 Goals? Resolutions? Umm - nothing :) Or I can be a little better to myself by saying - nothing on this day :)
Daily basis decision making. It's only on the resting days that I am not making plans. It is only on the not so good days that I am not planning. It is an ongoing process that started a few years back, and I hope, and pray, that it ends, not before I die!
The scary questions like vision and plan and goal and destinations are not really for me I guess. At least for that bit of Rajat, which is very innate - very innermost! There are dreams. Whole lot of them. BIG ones and the SMALL ones. Those broad guidelines on which I lay the small road maps that I have. Apart from that - it is just one big fat party - a party which happens over a cup of badam milk on the corner of the road. A party which happens after relishing something which I prepare in the kitchen with a lot of love care and bla bla bla and which the others consider - uneatable. The party which happens after a few lines of code work or when I find a new drupal module. The part which happens when it is sunny - sometimes when it is windy and the party which happens when it rains.
Sometimes I ask myself is it is okay to be so stupid as not to have the BIG Plan for my own self. And then, in a few minutes, the more friendly side of me tell; me, dude - let's party! When he made me he made sure that I can never enjoy a party when I am not working! Work - party - party work. No they are not separable. They just go hand in hand.
After such a long silly description, let me come to the point.
I have begun to realise that what works best for me, is in fact walking the small distances, the best way I can. Form my favourite book - "Yes I too read some books guys" - When you are on a journey of 30 miles at night with a torch in hand, you will only see some few feet of the road in front of you. Yet, you must keep walking to be able to see the next few feet and then the next till the destination is reached!
It's comforting to be extremely self critical at times. Along with intuition probably this is all that can ensure that I am on the right way. It's comforting to note that the bells in the head wont ring when things are not right and the party can happen only when you work!
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They are from one of the Spiritual Masters of our country. they are the words of Swami Ram Tirtha.
"When you are on a journey of 30 miles at night with a torch in hand, you will only see some few feet of the road in front of you. Yet, you must keep walking to be able to see the next few feet and then the next till the destination is reached!"
these words are just too good!!! :)